Muntaha Anwar

  Again, I’m left beat. In my own deadbeat mind.

  Let me be the silence behind your words that needed the space to breathe Let me be the whisper behind your shouts when your jealousy seethes Let me be the rhyme in your poems with the name of his that was beneath Let me be the prayer behind your hopes like a blowing wind between your teeth Let me be the rhythm of your heartbeats with a song buried beneath Let me be the tears behind your anger  lurking quietly underneath Let me be the emotion in your stories dear be my sword and I'll be your sheathe! — w i l l  y o u  l e t  m e ?

I am tired of being told I am loved and cared about but never made to feel that way.

  Lately I've been wondering everything The thoughts swirl, my heart spins, everything is too much I just want to stop

  I learned to live by life at 22, learned how to stay awake at night, I laugh and laugh and break from the inside, fight myself every day, i wound myself up every day, I am so tired of myself that I don't even die, I don't even die. Every day, I strengthen the rope of patience and burn it again, tears of blood from my own eyes every day, yet I am happy and I am as if I have no sorrow.

 "I know everyone understands that I am waiting for him but how can I tell and to whom should I tell that his behavior has not created such a wait in my eyes.They knew that waiting is also where the door of hope is open. But i'll wait for him till my last breath... 💔

 Sometimes you are just sad.  You don’t know why so you manage to listen to the most sad song in your playlist and you think you are withering like season. Sometimes you are just sad.  So you watch old snaps and videos . So that you can cry little bit more. Sometimes you are just sad.  So you over eat your favourite food and still feel hungry. And think about painful words uttered by the person. Sometimes you are just sad.  And look at the wall for hours and overthink about life. Wishing to get escape from the world.  Sometimes you are just sad. So you try to sleep and wake up with that unamed feelings of attack and you think you might be dying soon.  Sometimes you are just sad.

  ”You say you can feel my pain c an you differentiate  between slaughterhouse and cage silence.”

She's full of power Like no one can beat her Her eyes are  like a burning fire Thats ready to ignite when provoked Everyone stuns by her words when she starts to speak That makes their mouth shut and trembles In the middle of the crowd Her looks stands out  Undeniably, unbreakable But can you see her soul? It's vengeful yet slowly breaking And crashing in pain Her heart is breaking in vain In her eyes there's  a secret dip seated fear That no one else can see She maybe strong yet vulnerable She's fearless yet fearful

I  found myself ripping out my eyelashes  Blowing them off my finger Wishing that you would find yourself falling in love with me  Hoping that star that i pray to every night Would take pity on me  Granting my wishes true 

      Uncertain Love I looked around a lot, Bunch of words can't fit you, I have so many shades of you, That I Dnt want to miss one  second of you, It has to be my words, Because don't know the fortune of loving you,

Never forget you're unique and beautiful in your own way. And there is no comparison necessary. Please give yourself the love you keep trying to give everyone else. ♥️ Belive in your power and start each day with a grateful heart and don't give up. You're stronger than you ever think.

       Dear me, I am sorry..  I'm sorry you had to endure so much suffering because you were too shy and too kind. I'm sorry that you tried so desperately to fix others and you put your own fears and needs back in order. I'm sorry that there were days when smiling hurt but you forced yourself to laugh so that no one had to worry about you. I'm sorry that you gave all of your time and effort to people that didn't give the same amount back. I'm sorry that there were nights when you cried yourself to sleep and no one bothered to understand why. I'm sorry you had to go through that all alone and nobody was with you.                      But most of all I'm so sorry that I did not love you, like you deserved to be loved..💔

Remember to treat yourself Kindly When your emotions are beating up your brain....!!

Feeding your mind should be taken as seriously as feeding your stomach.