Muntaha Anwar

I neglected myself for so many years, gave my heart and soul to a man who never ever loved me. I was blinded by his love, his fake affection. What I felt, I thought it was love. I thought that we had a connection but sadly it was only one sided, and when love becomes one sided you have to realise that at that point it's time to walk away. It will break you into pieces, but why stay with a man who no longer loves you. Why wake up next to a soul that no longer wants you, it's not worth the heart ache. Think about yourself and your worth, you deserve someone who loves you someone who will show you the world. You were created to be loved, not destroyed. Know your own worth.

I never intended to write, but when I wrote, he praised me, he liked it, so that's why I think I should write and I am trying again and again just because he praised,he praised ..!

I feel you like I feel pain- Harsh and hurting, never to forget  My soul starts screaming,  My eyes starts to wet.  I will always remember waiting  For myself in your lane , And now that I have become so numb I still feel you like i feel pain . ~ Muntaha Anwar

You are my sunshine in rain

Depression stole my entire life 

Embrace your imperfections, for they are what make you unique. You're beautiful, never ever forget that. There will never ever be a duplicate of you, and that is what makes you special. Love yourself. 

You're beautiful, I just want you to know this. No matter what you're going through, no matter what flaws you have. Your flaws are what make you unique, and they are beautiful. Start loving yourself and the body that you are in, stop over looking your flaws and doubting yourself. You are unique, and you are beautiful. There is no other walking this earth that is a duplicate of you, and that in itself is beautiful. Love yourself, love the body that you are in, love every single part of you.

If you surround yourself with negativity, then negativity it is you'll find. Surround yourself with positivity, let hapiness take over your mind. For as each precious day passes, we are slowly running out of time. Once the elegant tick of a second passes, it is time we can't rewind. 

When multiple people hurt you, you start to become numb to the pain. Numb to the heartache, you're used to this now. People wonder as to why you've started to distance yourself, you tell them that you're busy when in reality you're just avoiding the pain. It's easier to hide away alone, then to give your all to someone only to end up broken again.

I will not beg for your love, time and attention. I will not stick around if you're making me feel unwanted, I will not allow myself to stay with a man who mentally and physically abuses me. I will walk away, no matter how much I love you I will not stay. I know my worth, and I'm worth allot more than all of the above.

I had to hold my own hand, wipe my own tears, pep talk to my own reflection in the mirror, pick my own self up when I felt as if I couldn’t go on anymore. I battled through every war that was thrown at me alone, so if you think for one second that I’ll be ‘nothing’ or ‘lonely’ without you then you are wrong.

I'm trying so hard to find myself the way I was before all of this anxiety and depression, where did I go. I'll do anything to get the old me back, literally anything.

He could see the pain within her eyes however he turned around and walked away, he didn't stop to rethink his decision he just carried on walking. She watched as an army of tears painfully crawled down her cheek, she hoped and prayed that he'd just rethink this decision and come back. But he finally turned the corner and just like that he was gone, he left whilst dragging her broken heart behind him. The memories, the special moments, her heart, her feelings, her tears, none of that was enough to change his mind.  She cried over him every single night for months, she slept for days on end because she couldn't face the world without him. She neglected herself, she distanced herself from her family and friends. Eventually a year had past and she was still crying over a man who no longer loved her, she had no one to talk to because she had pushed everyone away. She felt as if she had no control over this situation, she was so afraid to accept the fact that he was gone. She was...

It’s really strange. When you get your degree, people ask you when you’re getting a job. When you get a job, people ask when you’ll get that promotion. When you gain weight, they’ll tell to shed some pounds. When you lose it, they’ll say you’re too skinny. When you don’t wear the hijab, people will tell you it’s time. When you put it on, people will say - ‘What’s the point if you sin?’ When you are single, people ask you when you’re getting married. When you’re married, they’ll ask why you have no kids. When you are blessed with luxury life - they’ll ask how you have earned,  If you get divorced - they’ll ask why? If you move on, people will say, 'Why so quick?’ Moral: People will never be happy and they’ll never stop talking. Forget them. Focus on pleasing the Creator not creation.

let's watch the stars together and forget about the world for a bit.

It’s hard to fix a damaged soul by your own. There will be hurtful nights and a lot of tears but at the end I promise you’ll find a way out.

At this point in my life I'm lost, I don't know who I am. I don't know what I want, I don't know where I'm supposed to be. My life right now just feels like I'm walking down a never ending road to a destination that doesn't even exist, things are just very blank, confusing and scary right now.

Don't fall in love with his words, fall in love with his actions. Actions speak louder than words, he'll show you how much he loves you without saying a single word. You'll feel it when it's love.

She was beautiful, but not like those girls who praised by the people . She was beautiful, for the way she thought. She was beautiful, for the sparkle in her eyes when she talked about something she loved. She was beautiful, for her ability to make other people smile even if she was sad. No, she wasn't beautiful for something as temporary as her looks. She was beautiful, deep down to her soul.

I'm tired of temporary people, I'm tired of people walking in and out of my life. It's emotionally exhausting and it hurts, it takes allot of time and effort to create a bond with someone. It's not as easy as it sounds so please, if your intentions involve walking out of my life when something better comes along then please just avoid me.

I’ve reached a point in my life where I no longer care who walks out of my life, I have survived the battles that I have faced alone. I don’t need anyone but myself, because I know that I’ll never ever leave myself behind. I’ll never ever walk away from myself when things get tough, I’ve got me and that’s all that matters to me now. I’ll no longer rely on others for happiness, for laughter, for anything. I’m enough.

Be the reason someone believes in the goodness of people. 

My love for photography will never end 💫