Muntaha Anwar

“ Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday..”

You deserve something you don't have to question. You deserve someone who is sure of you.

"Can you hear how loudly i am thinking of you?"

“ Sometimes I just feel so disconnected from everything and everyone around me it scares me, but it also gives me some kind of peace”

Life has many twist and turns . We navigate them blindly. We can not see the next turn it sometimes comes quick without warning.... Keep paddling

I feel like it is almost impossible for us as humans to not judge the things and people around us immediately, it automatically happens inside our brain. BUT it is a choice whether you are open to the possibility of being wrong about the thing or person you judged .

  I  have never spoken about my Dad in any get togethers or any of my social account.  I don't even talked about him with my friends or my family,because talking about him feels worse than dying on being stabbed with the sharpest knife a one thousand ninety nine times into infinity. But I'll do that today don't know why...  I'll take the one thousand and ninety nine stabs into infinity today...  I always have and always shall believe any good I've ever done and every good I'll ever do is all because of the kind of person my FATHER.  He was such a beautiful soul it wets my eyes to even think about the kinds of down he had to face He was brilliant and flawless in all he did.He clearly defined perfectionism for all of us.  The perfect son he was,the perfect brother,the perfect husband,the perfect son in law,the perfect brother in law, the perfect father in law,the perfect uncle and hands down The Best Father on planet. People tell me that it's my mother w...

I don’t believe I could ever have enough, or the right, words to present as a tribute to you. After all, how could I give a form to all the unconditional love we carry for each other. While it would never be entirely possible to write about what I feel for you, let’s call this a small attempt. From the smallest moments, like hugging you to sleep at night to sharing all my secrets with you to just being there with you while we’d absorb each others’ silence, it has been an incredible journey, and always shall be one. Maybe that’s what love is. Being there, merely being there, without speaking a word and feeling like the strongest person in the world and as though nothing could break you apart till you’re together. Whilst you were always close to me as a mother , it was only after Dad passed away that we had this magical bond be created. Thank you for being the perfect mother, mentor, teacher, best-friend, secret bearer, defender and idol. Thank you for completing my soul. All thanks to y...

There is silence But in silence I hear my heart breaking

Life has proven to me that being perfect still isn't good enough, so love your flaws and imperfections. Love all the parts of you that aren't perfect, being unique should be the new normal. 

No I'm not normal, I have crackhead traits. I laugh at random crap, I cry over stupid shit and laugh during the wrong moments. I'm not perfect and that's okay, I don't want to be perfect anyway.

I neglected myself for so many years, gave my heart and soul to a man who never ever loved me. I was blinded by his love, his fake affection. What I felt, I thought it was love. I thought that we had a connection but sadly it was only one sided, and when love becomes one sided you have to realise that at that point it's time to walk away. It will break you into pieces, but why stay with a man who no longer loves you. Why wake up next to a soul that no longer wants you, it's not worth the heart ache. Think about yourself and your worth, you deserve someone who loves you someone who will show you the world. You were created to be loved, not destroyed. Know your own worth.